Well, after spending almost an hour preparing a new thread and then somehow having a cyberspace error and it was lost to the netherworld, I will try to rewrite a few thoughts of which I would more than appreciate the input of others.
I, Teddy Bear Cowboy, am a cowboy. Yes, a real, honest-to-goodness cowboy. I ride horses, herd cows, raise hay (and a bit of Cain), but I feel I am a product of a bygone era. Today, school teachers talk about the "cowboy era" and teach it in their lessons on American History. There are many authors who have made a living telling stories about cowboys and the wild west. Today, that is all gone. . . Really? If that is true, I must be some sort of ghost. . . a part of fiction or history that is now out of place in today's world.
But I can assure you, just as Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson, and Waylon Jennings in the country hit "Ghostwriters in the Sky" tell the story of legends of the past, I am still (and always will be) "around, and around, and around."
But that is not what this post is about. I simply want to share that after being here on ADISC for almost two years, I am feeling a bit let down on where this experience is going for me. When I first found ADISC, I was overjoyed to find a site with many others like me who shared in a diaper or abdlism interest. (Okay, I have yet to find another real padded cowboy --or cowgirl --but at least others who are adults and yet have interests in this fashion).
But today I find that a lot of the conversation on ADISC seems to be the same old thing, over and over again. This is probably good for new members and the younger crowd who may not have heard it before. But honestly, how many times do we need to discuss "What is the best diaper?" "What is the marshmallow trick?" . . . Come on, really? After how many gazillion posts? --Let's face it folks, marshmallows have a laxative effect when used as a suppository! What else can be said that hasn't already been said?
When I was a little boy (okay, I'm still a little boy at heart --but when I really was aged as a little boy) I remember a lot of places that we used to run cows for winter pasture and that we would put up hay in the summertime. They were beautiful, open places that brought a lot of enjoyment to me. However, many of these places have since been sold, and are now urban housing developments and even business sections of a large city. --THIS WAS LESS THAN TWENTY YEARS AGO! (But really, I am not that all that old).
Perhaps I am just feeling a bit melancholy, but I miss these times. I miss the beauty and the experiences that I had there. . . . Today, in another fashion, I miss the old days of just a short while ago when things where different here on ADISC. I remember a lot of other conversation that was a bit more "adult" adult baby conversation. --I'm not talking as in "dirty" adult conversation, but conversation that seemed more meaningful, and in-depth than the current topics and items I referred to above.
I believe there have been many who have left ADISC for similar reasons. I miss their conversations. HG3GL, Angela Bauer, and others, where have you gone????
As I understand it, some of these folks were banned. Was this because they broke the rules, or was it because they requested it when they decided to leave ADISC? I am not sure, but I do know that I miss their conversation. If I remember right, Angela Bauer was once part of ADISC staff, and was voted either "most detailed" or "most serious" member in the ADISC polls.
Right now I find myself in the midst of questioning whether or not to continue to call ADISC home. However, I have not found any other site that even comes close to replacing it. I admire the efforts of staff to make this a safe site and to keep it free from a lot the questionable discussion and pornographic nature of other sites. I applaud the efforts of the staff and the founder for this.
But at present --perhaps as the cowboy today is considered a thing of the past, I am feeling somewhat out of place here on this site. Yes, I am still a padded cowboy, but there does not seem to be any place on this prairie that I really feel at home anymore. I miss the "good old days" that I first experienced here on ADISC --even if they were only a year or two ago.
I welcome others thoughts on this. Are there others still out there that feel this way, or have you all moved on?
Please share your thoughts. I hope I haven't offended anyone by my comments, but this just isn't the same ol' roundup anymore.
Teddy Bear Cowboy