Hi.. I introduced myself in a couple threads but I'll give u some info about me before I posted thread.. I am 31, male and gay. I have been in a relationship for 12 years with the same guy..
Ok now to the Q:
We have all experienced the guilty feeling of wearing diapers and I am sure we have all, at least once, thrown away our collection.. I have done this about 10 times over the past 8 years.
I met and started dating my BF in 1999 and I didn't tell him about the diapers until 2003. He was the first person I had ever told.. Also up until 2003 I had never purchased diapers from the store. I would either make my own or "fantisize" about wearing.
My BF was very understanding even more so then I expected. That same day we went to the store and I bought some diapers. Through trial and error I learned what baby diapers fit and I learned Goodnites were perfect.
For the first few years I had a lot of guilt and constantly threw away diapers and other things. I wanted to wear them all the time but couldn't force myself to be ok with it.. Eventually I was more comfortable about them and started to wear diapers to sleep.
The odd thing was the more comfortable I became with the diapers my BF seemed to be more uncomfortable. It went from "I don't care" and u can wear diaper, footed pajamas or whatever I wanted around the house to him not wanting me to.
Then the dreaded conversations started about me wearing them. I, like many others, go through the "cycle" when I will wear diapers for a week straight 24/7 which my BC didn't care about until recently.
I also wore diapers out all the time (under my clothes). And I made sure the diapers would not be seen. I love wearing diapers when I go out to run errands or go places.
A few weeks ago my BF told me he didn't want me wearing under clothes anymore In public and he also said that he prefer I always wear shorts/pants if I have one on around the house.
The conversation came out of no where and was a complete 360 from how he felt before. I told him I would never want to make him feel uncomfortable and tried to understand why he changed all of the sudden.
He claims he can hear the goodnites every time I wear one and he worried people in public will hear them too. I don't think they r noisy or noticeable and I have never been seen or caught in public wearing one..
Seems like my BF has the same type of purge cycle that I have but in reverse order. I have become more comfortable as he has become more uncomfortable. Has this happened to anyone else? Or anyone have advice?