This is the letter I store in that locked trunk I keep below the stairs. I thought I would share it with you all in-case you might be thinking of leaving a letter to a loved one in the case of a accidental death. Hopefully they never have to read this, but I wanted to leave something if they ever had to go through my belongings.
I am looking for suggestions to make this sound better and less depressing.
don't worry about me I am doing great, I have a great job and great friends, and will have a house paid off very soon :P. I want to be 90 years old and in a nursing home watching young hot nurses change my diapers ;P This letter is a just in case thing.
Dear Mom & Dad -
I want to share something about my life that is important because I love you. I have a secret to share with you; the items you found in this trunk are used to stimulate that secret desire. The term for this desire is an Adult Baby. An adult baby desire is to seek the babying experience. Along with diapers they love pacifiers, bottles, baby clothes and baby food. They like to feel like a baby and for them diapers mean "security". Adult Baby’s desire a sexual partner of the same biological age, but their own "sexual age" does not match his or her own biological age (i.e. the adult baby wishes an adult sexual partner who treats them as a baby).
I have had this desire since I was 13, maybe even younger when I kept sneaking diapers from my closet to put on, although I didn’t understand it then. In the years that have passed since then I have struggled to answer the question “why do I like this? Why am I not normal?”. I read more and more about it to understand it and finally later in life accept it. This is just one small facet of my life that I couldn’t get past and it is something that should not cause excessive worry for it is harmless in itself. I performed this act maybe once a month alone; it relieved stress and made me happy.
I know that you may be feeling shocked, confused, angry, and sad; and perhaps you might feel that, somewhere along the way, you have failed as parents. From what I have read, these are common reactions. You have not failed as parents; you have both been wonderful. Nobody chooses to have strange desires like this and I accept myself and I am happy with who I am.
Part of me thinks that you might have suspected something since I never brought home girls and never talked about dating or women. I felt like you questioned that I was gay, this is not true I was 100% heterosexual. To explain my lack of girlfriends, I can say that every time I dated someone I would see the worst in them, I would always picture a life with them full of misery and fighting, I liked being free and I liked being by myself. This all may have come as a complete surprise to you and you may need to take some time to get used to the idea.
Also I wanted to say that when we speak on the phone and you ask me what is going on in my life and I really don’t have much to say because I lived mostly a mundane and kept to myself, I played video games most of the time, and that isn’t something that interest you so I kept it out of the conversation. I know you wanted a special connection with me, and you may have felt you didn’t get it, but the truth is you are very special to me, the best parents in the world, and I love you both very much.
I know you have always loved me very much. It was very hard for me write this knowing that one day you would open this trunk, and find out, I hid it from everyone mostly because I felt I was entitled to my own privacy about this and for fear of losing your love. Although you may not understand this part of my life, I hope that you still love me now. Know that I am the same person now as I was before you read this letter; you just know one more thing about me.
Edited: Some of the members thought the worst and after reading it again myself they had a point! lol, I like to compliment the people who responded so quickly to this thread, you guys showed a lot of caring and compassion.