I'm sorry if I'm in the wrong place I just don't really know where to go.
I'm married and have been with my husband for 5 years. I love him very much and we have a very close relationship.
Shortly into the relationship he told me that he enjoyed sucking dummies and that it gave him sexual pleasure. I have to admit that I found this a bit strange but he said that he didn't want to do it and that he was trying to stop and I figured that we all have our little usual quirks. Well anyway the topic came up a few times over the years however I didn't really think that much of it.
Recently I've found out that whilst on business trips my husband had been using dummies and bottles with milk in and sexually pleasuring himself. I felt really hurt as he had hidden this from me and I felt that it was behind my back but he said he was sorry and we moved on. More recently he has been under pressure at work. Things have got to the point where he wants to use these things in our sex life.
I want to be open minded and I don't want to change him but I'm finding it so hard to cope with. I'm going along with it but I just can't get used to it- it makes me feel so uncomfortable. I'm not trying to judge anyone- I know he has his feelings and they are natural to him but I just can't handle it.
I'm sorry if I'm in the wrong place really but I can't talk to anyone about this and I just wanted to know if anyone knew anywhere I can go. I feel really alone. I don't want to make him feel guilty and that he can't be himself and I feel that is what would happen if I said how I feel.
Can anyone help?