I have been wearing disposable diapers, as an adult, for about 10 years due to neurological issue. I have always liked diapers as a kid and then now again as an adult. I am not ashamed, but I am no exhibitionist (not criticizing anyone who is). Anywho, I just bought a pacifier on a whim and I think it's a great feeling and I'm most definitely a gay dude so I am not having a fantasy or sensational feeling of sucking a teat. HA!
I am not sure if its a regression thing or a taboo novelty but it feels right.
I am not into role playing or the paraphilic infantilism and when I was growing up pacifiers were not something my family gave the kids. I am not sure where its all coming from, maybe my adult/teen baby online friends are an inspiration. Who knows. At this point I am not going to over-analyze it. I am just going to continue embracing it.