I have to admit I've been feeling pretty lonely lately.
Even with all the time I spend with others at school I still feel like I'm alone.
I've never found it all that easy to make friends but even still when I was younger I knew a lot more people than I do today. Since moving to Maine I have lost contact with most of my friends (*B & Non *B) and I either haven't had the time or ambition to go out and meet others. It's hard to met others who aren't into this lifestyle to say nothing about those who are.
Even my wife seems to be distant lately. Years ago we used to do more together and nowadays we barely see each other or speak more than a few words. I've talked with her about it but I can never get a straight answer. Needless to say I'm conflicted. I do love her but if my little side can't get the love and nurturing it needs I don't know how much longer our relationship will work. Then again I'm not sure if leaving her would change anything as I've said before I have trouble meeting others.
I haven't even been as active on Adisc as much as I'd like to be but the thing is when I do participate I can't help but feel like I'm being ignored. I do hope that I am wrong in thinking like this.