When I'm not wearing diapers, I have 110% control over everything.
However, when I'm wearing diapers (When I put on a diaper I get an urge to pee if I haven't gone like 15-30 minutes before putting it on, and I don't have the privacy to wear 24/7, just once in a while when family isn't home) I feel the strong urge to pee and it feels really hard to hold back (as if I were a child going through potty training and trying to hold my bladder).
I don't always want to use my diapers as soon as I put them on, sometimes I want to make them last a while before using them, so even though this urge to pee that's really hard to control makes me feel babyish, it's not always at the right timing.
One thing I'm curious about is.. Half of the time I'm wearing a diaper and the urge shoots up and I'm standing or sitting, I just start going without any chance to decide if I want to go ahead and use the diaper, or hold back the sudden urge and savor the diaper for the time-being.
I've worked pretty hard to become able to use my diapers without having to force it while standing and (almost mastered) sitting, but now half the time I'm wearing diapers I'm having accidents (only wetting). I feel the urge when it hits, but I can't control it, I just start going.
I feel as if I've explained my situation enough.. If I haven't, please ask any questions you may have.
Now, my question is.. Will this only get worse until I can't control these accidents while I'm diapered at all? Keep in mind I don't have any accidents or troubles at all when I'm not diapered. Nor am I having any messing accidents, Idk if that would matter or not.
Please don't think this thread is fake or just for attention or anything like that.. I'm not asking if this is good or bad, just asking if this is normal with a lot of TB/DL's that wear and use a lot. I don't really mind the accidents since they're only when I'm wearing diapers, but Idk if it's because my mind thinks it's okay to go since I'm wearing a diaper? Or if it's because in the past (my first 3-4 packs of diapers >.>..) I would use my diapers as soon as I put them on..? Will I only end up having more of these accidents while diapered?
I apologize for the long thread, the blocks of text, and if anything doesn't exactly make too much sense to anybody. If anything needs to be clarified, let me know and I'll try to explain it better. It's 6 am, I haven't had any sleep due to homework, and figured this would be the best place to put this thread.