My girlfriend and I were on our way to a winery that had a 3 hour drive. I couldn't even tell you how we got on the topic. In the car, she said that she doesn't understand how people get desires from certain things. I simply said that I have a certain desire and sparked the 3 hour long discussion.
I told her that I'm not sure that I want her to know yet. I am embarrassed by it and not sure I'm ready for a face to face conversation with this especially with my girlfriend. But that was only feeding the fire. She started asking questions to try and guess and was fun but didn't guess it. She asked how I knew that I had this certain desire and I explained to her. I asked if she had one and she replied that she doesn't know. I wanted to tell her but I wasn't sure how she would handle this kind of information about me.
I asked her if she was sure she wanted to know and after a short discussion she said she wanted to wait.
5 days later we where driving home from the Franklin Park Conservatory after a few cocktails and she started asking again about what my desire was. She asked some question to try and guess and I responded to her answers. She was more confused on what it was from guessing. Her feelings toward the matter was that she's going to be jealous because she isn't the only one giving me this attention that a couple share.
She is debating if she wants to know. If she tells me that she wants to know I feel that I will have to tell her. She assured me I can trust her. That I can and have no doubt. It's the knowledge of her knowing that is scary. I don't want our relationship to go south because of this.
She is a kindergarten teacher with the sweetest personality. I do have fears as to what she might think. I only want to be ready for when this discussion gets to the point of her knowing.
For those significant others out there that found out about their bf/gf's desire. How did you handle it and what thoughts ran through your mind. What can help me to get her to better understand.
Anyone else.... thoughts?