I want to tell people that I'm transsexual so badly T^T I want to tell my church first, but I'm afraid of what they'll all think. My youth pastor already knows, and he took really well (he wants to set up a date over Spring Break to talk about it).
I don't know what came over me. It just came out of nowhere, and now it's eating me alive. Maybe because I'm sick of seeing how real guys behave, the music they listen to, etc. etc. I'm just sick of being labeled as one of those disrespectful douches (sorry, I'm not trying to offend anyone here, but if you're transsexual like me, you'll know where I'm coming from.... and going to my particular school doesn't help, either). I want people to know that I'm not a guy at heart!
People do see how I behave differently from other guys, though. The guys think I'm weird (or "queer", to be technical), and the girls... well, they notice my behavioral differences, but they don't say anything about it. Just yesterday the guys in my PE class tried to insult me (but failed) by saying that I need to go to the girls' locker room because I'm a girl. They tried to insult me, but instead made me feel proud on the inside.
Still, I just need to get it out! I'm slowly descending back into depression. Any advice?