Hey my names Ally! I'm 26/f/mississippi ..oriniginally from Pa! ClevelandNick told me about this site. We grew up in the same city and I found out through mutual friends that he wore ( not good for him) but was a relief to me! I spent much of my teen years hiding this from everyone except my friends I'd chat with on DPF. Nick told me about this site a few weeks ago and I think I have been on everyday for the last 2 weeks. I am loving the stories ..true life and fiction. I am a dl who doesn't get to wear as often as I'd like. I have been married for 4.5 years but I don't think he really gets how much of this lifestyle I like. Yeah I color and drink out of Princess cups ..and often suck my thumb. But thats pretty much it. Somedays I think I want to tell him but I know that realistically nothing good ever usually comes from that. I feel so alone most days. Even here it seems most people are boys/guys. I just finished the "Theres A Baby in My Bed." And I liked it. I read it all in 24 hours. I really understood more about me than I ever have. I go through periods where I dont engage in any ab or dl behavior and get rid of everything...only to find a few months or even a year later I wished I hadn't. I've never stopped sucking my thumb and have always been okay with it..did learn to not do it publicly though after 14. I used to have a stuffed animal I slept with but stopped when I got married. Its in my dresser though..and when my husbands asleep or at work..I get it out and hold it and suck my thumb for a little bit before putting it back up. I now have a blanket I sleep with. Its fleece with yellow satin edging..the print? diaper pins :O) A friend made it in highschool after I told her I never had a blankie. Lately...I see more kid behavior trying to come out...I'm scared of being found out...and then I want it at the same time. I just want to be able to be the real me more often. I do not want to be a baby or even wear 24/7...thats not what this is for me. But if I could just go and sit , watch cartoons, draw, and play and maybe wear...and have a sippy cup and animal crackers for snack once in awhile I think I could be much happier and a lot less stressed. Torn in trying to find the balance between fantasy and real life.