I work in a fish market and we recently acquired a new fishmonger. I have been charged with the task of training him, which strikes my ego since the boss knows that I am planning to become a teacher and he reckons me as somewhat reliable.
That being said, he has taken notice and has even complimented me on my scaffolding of his skills. This new guy's a difficult one to work with, since he's immature and irresponsible. I suppose I should get used to it, considering my future profession. He needs a reliable male role model as he is an unwed father of an unexpected child with zero apparent ambition.
Last week was okay, but in the course of the past couple of days I erred in memory and judgment.
• I was shucking a dozen oysters and I cut myself.. it hurt so bad I shouted an obscenity within 5 feet of him. He just giggled incessantly.
• I forgot to weigh a whole fish before gutting it. TWICE
• Other patterns of inconsistent behavior which include me standing around eating dates and telling him what to do while he is busy working. (Kind of what I'm expected to do since I'm supervising and evaluating him)
As a result of this, he probably thinks I'm a chump. Since he's underage in the United States, he asked me to buy beer for him, but later redacted his statement saying "Never mind, that would be a dick move on my part." I simply replied "No, I won't buy you beer, because I would get in trouble."
It frustrates me so when I'm in a leadership role in the workplace and my weaknesses are made apparent. This has led to serious self-doubt about my abilities to lead in the future. Anyone else experiencing this as well?