Does anyone else love going out to buy *BDL gear in person? I think it's an interesting question because there are so many threads posted here by people who are relatively new to buying diapers (etc.) who say they hate it and that they freak out and can't do it. It would be interesting to see if there are others (like myself) who love it, or if some of those people who were terrified their first few times grew to enjoy it.
It's a little difficult to put my finger on why I enjoy it so much. I guess I feel like it's a legitimate form of exhibitionism. I'm not running around flashing my diapers to strangers, but nevertheless, I'm exposing myself anonymously to a stranger either as someone who needs to wear diapers or as an adult baby. I love to imagine what the checkout girl thinks when an early-20s guy buys a packet of large Drynites and nothing else. I try to read their body language for hints - a confused look or a smirk. "Too young to be buying them for a child, but young enough that he could still fit into them... wow maybe this guy never outgrew his bedwetting." And despite the insistence of some posters around here that the cashier never cares about what you're buying, I've definitely received some curious looks and stifled giggles. It's wonderfully degrading and I love every second of it.
It's even better when the vendor is *BDL aware - then I'm not exposing myself as someone who might have an embarrassing medical condition, but as someone who definitely has a bizarre and humiliating fetish. There's a physiotherapy supplies retailer near me that I've bought some plastic pants from before, and at least one of the guys there (the owner it seems like) is very much *BDL aware. They openly say on their website that they're very open minded and aware of the adult community, and some of their items even obviously target adult babies. So the rest of the staff know what's up but they still don't seem terribly accepting of it. The last time I went in there was a cute girl working the desk at the front of the store. So I casually told her that I was "looking to buy some plastic pants." She seemed to panic a little bit and laughed nervously, "Oh, OK, I'll just head out the back and get Andrew; he's the one who deals with that sort of thing." I'm sure she was thinking something more along the lines of "... deals with you people." Now, admittedly, when I walked in and saw this cute girl working, I was rather looking forward to having her awkwardly show me the locking, adult-sized, baby-print plastic pants, but seeing her embarrassed and not wanting to deal with me was exciting too. Just having a random stranger meet me and know that I have a diaper fetish is a huge rush.
So it's reached the point that buying new adult baby stuff is one of my favourite things about this fetish. Keeping an eye out for new brands, finding new types of items to buy, finding new places that sell them and finally of course, actually being there in-person and having people know what I'm doing - it's all great fun. I realize that a lot of this must sound creepy and perhaps vaguely sociopathic but I'm betting that there are some people on this forum who know exactly what I'm talking about. I'd love to hear your thoughts or hear some other stories along these lines.