Sadly, my mom passed away recently. She passed away very, very unexpectedly. What had happened was that though out the week she had been feeling very ill, and had been throwing up a lot. She went to the doctor and they found out that her gallbladder had stopped working. They scheduled a surgery on Friday night. I had been sick with something else, and was just going back to school Friday, January 27th. She went into the hospital that morning, but I had worries, but was told everything was going to be fine, that this was a simple procedure.
I got home, and my dad had left to go to the hospital, they had said something had happened. I was a bit worried, but brushed it off. I went to bed that night, and thought that I'd see my mom by Saturday afternoon. Hell, that on Sunday she might even watch The Walking Dead with me.
However, when I woke up Saturday and went upstairs, my dad informed me that my mom had passed away early that morning. Apparently her blood pressure couldn't be stabilized, and she coded a few times before they either couldn't bring her back, or had told my dad that she wasn't ever going to come out of it.
I'm not here to argue about how that doesn't make sense, because I know it doesn't, but that is something that I'm not allowed to make accusations about, so says my dad and some lawyers.
My problem is that I'm having trouble coping with all of this. My mom was someone who was able to hold my life together, she even knew about me being a TB, and even bought me diapers. I loved her.
Now I just keep getting these horrible bouts of intense depression, and they come and go, sometimes only lasting an hour or two, and sometimes lasting for a whole day. I don't know what to do, or even where to start asking questions. So I just wanted to start here, you all have helped me in the past, but right now I think I need your help more then ever. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.