The diapers I ordered recently from XPMedical were the first ones I ever got on my own power and used, and...
Well I'm actually quite surprised to say I don't like them as much as I thought I would. Make no mistake, I've had a pretty strong diaper fetish for awhile now, despite never actually having or using them. And now that I have them, there are things about them I'm not very fond of.
I ordered two sample packs, one of Abenas, and the other of Dry 24/7's. I know... I've read in more than one thread that I should order smaller, less absorbent diapers so I can appreciate the bigger ones more later, but with my lack of patience, my lack of funds, and my "might as well go big or go home attitude" I made my decision accordingly. :P
Don't get me wrong, these diapers are incredible, and they live up to everything people say about them, I just don't feel like they're right for me. When I first put on an M2, I screwed up the tape job, so the only thing holding them up besides the leg tapes was the pair of shorts I was wearing on top of them. I may have had the leg tapes too tight, but regardless, after about 10 or 15 minutes of wearing them I realized "wow, these are thick..." I went about my daily routine for a little while, and every so often I would forget I was wearing. It just felt like normal underwear only thicker.
I went on to wet them and see if that was enjoyable at all. And it was, for a little while. I got bored of it and they started to feel dry again, so it felt thicker and harder to keep up around my waist. I changed in about an hour or so, and when I removed the diaper, the smell of the urine (which was very diluted because I drink a lot of water) was so musky and so nasty that I just wanted it out of the room. I bagged it up and took it to the dumpster. Curious, though I tried and changed into another one for the night to see if I would enjoy it, as I tend to get more aroused the later I get into the night.
As expected I did get more aroused at night, both from wetting and from just having it on. I could find no way to relieve myself though. You see, KuuKuu is asexual, and has very little libido to begin with. This makes it very hard to get off without something to visually read or see. On top of that, the thought of touching my body in those places is disgusting and a turn-off to me, so I had to find a different way to solve the problem. Normally, it involves using friction on the underwear I have on, because too intense humping can't solve the issue. Because of the size and thickness of the diaper, I could not do this the way I usually do. I tried for a little while to no avail and just went to sleep frustrated.
Finally, I woke up this morning, feeling relieved from the sleep and also from the dream I'm assuming the diaper instilled upon me. This was, however, until I moved a little and the waistband opened up and yet again I could smell the diaper. >.< Most people (especially here) don't seem to think too much of the urine smell, but for me it's just intolerable. If it weren't for the fact that my roommate will be around until his final exam later on, I would have changed out, but instead, I'm stuck like this until I have a better opportunity.
I've still got five diapers left of varying sizes and I will eventually wear them all. I just don't enjoy them as much as I thought I would. Despite all this, I still find diapers quite kinky, cute, and fetish-able, I just don't like the thicker ones as much as I thought I would. Most likely, in the future, I will either order a pull-up style, or one that's thinner, so I still get the effect and rush of wearing a diaper, possibly with the cuteness effect, but I don't see myself wearing the thicker ones. I like wetting and thickness in concept, but am surprisingly put off by it in reality.
I really wish I could enjoy it more than I do. :/