One of the hardest things in dealing with incontinence has been talking about it. It's something I knew that I would have to do at one point though because while it's known that I wear diapers at home, I've never been fully clear on why. Because of being treated for crown's and that's been going fine, Mum has had this idea that once it's gone I'll never need them again. I've never felt comfortable talking about it and really being open about things.
Lately though I've noticed a change in how stuff is at home. Not only am I more comfortable wearing and accepting them, I've even been able to mention them a little more as well. There was even a joke about it one day when a drynites ad was on. Because of this, for a time I I wanted to be more open about what's wrong and I wanted to feel comfortable wearing them at home and not having to be fully dressed at times, even if it means someone would see them. Last night, I was able to do that.
Last night I went out of my room but I was dressed more for when I'm in bed or too hot so because of that, the diaper was on show. I didn't make any effort though to draw attention so just did what I needed and kept quiet. Mum made a comment about me not doing something like that in a while though and in the end we just started talking. It was nice to be able to do so at lest, but also just how relaxed it was and that she didn't mind or seem fazed by me sitting there with a diaper showing
I think some things might still be misunderstood like why I wet myself and feeling more comfortable over all in these, but it had to be done.I may never be able to feel comfortable in pants again so it's only fair that such is made aware of. Now I can feel free to just carry on just how things are and no pressure about "getting out of them" soon. I think that can only be a good thing.
I guess with that behind me now and no longer feeling like I'm hiding something, I can go about my like and being in diapers in a much more relaxed way then before.