Ive noticed alot, like alot of mentions of depression. For whatever reason whatever scenario it doesn't matter. Now I'd say it's safe to say that I've experienced the 'ugliest' side of depression. Apart from being depressed myself for about half a year my best friend in primary school's dad was depressed for as long as I can remeber. Money issues presumably, doesn't matter. Anyway he eventually commited suicide when he was fired from his job. Oddly enough I remeber this friend of mine was never really the same. Apparently I was actually bullied for a while cos I kept on sticking up for him. But I can't really remeber this, I was too young.
The worst point in my life was probably when this guy I knew fairly well a couple of years ago killed himself a few hours after he'd rang me to ask if he could stay round mine. Needless to say that hit me like a fucking train. Pardon the language but Christ that funeral was the worst thing I've ever done fullstop(or period if your American). I've never really gotten over that and in my moment of weakness I told a close friend of mine that I thought I might be gay. She then told someone else and it spread. But not like wild fire, more like a rumor trickle. But it didn't matter, I was definitively misserable by this time. Everything was pointless, everything went and was going to go wrong, I didn't like or want company and I slowly watched all my closest mates drift away because I'd effectively become a husk of my former self. This is deffinatly the darkest point of my life and to this day I haven't ironed out the reasons. I'm still undecided of my sexuality and I still find myself dreaming about the phone call from that guy. I've recalled the call so many times it's like corrupted itself and I can't remeber if he was crying or straight faced.
So anyways now I'm the normal crazy guy I was before so alls well that ends well.
Anyway I've not told anyone a fraction of what I've revealed on adisc and it's been helpful simply writing it.
**Ive written this on my phone so there might be errors here and there, sorry in advance.