There have been some posts lately in which people mention becoming DL when they were older or being in denial for years (see Babykk44 https://www.adisc.org/forum/diaper-t...r-ashamed.html).
A lot of the posters in these forums are TB/DL and seem to have known they were DL most all their life. I remember clearly trying to get diapers when I was certainly no older than 6, and playing at diapering myself with the washcloth in the shower throughout my childhood. But I never recognized that I was DL until I was in my 50s (maybe there should be a forum for creepy old guys). I started because I realized I could and when I did I realized that something inexplicable happened when I did. I'm most interested in the things about myself that I don't understand. I'm not even close to understanding this one at all.
I'm still trying to understand a little better, but I'm not particularly conflicted about it. And sure as hell not interested in mining my extremely unhappy youth in search of "causes". I'm not AB, just fixated on wearing and using diapers.
I'm wondering what the experience of the post-teen DL or AB has been. Did you carry your fetish through your younger years or did it emerge when you were older? If it did emerge later, do you recall experiences in your youth that foreshadowed your interest? Do you have circumstances that let you confirm that they are genuine recollections and not a result of self suggestion once you came out to yourself, so to speak?
Anyway, it's been a rocky path over a number of years to get to the place where I realize that I just love this and that's OK. I'd be interested in hearing how you got to where you are with this, if you're willing to share.
--Feed your beast, but don't let it eat you.