Well, although she calls me her boyfriend, I have quite a scorn for her. But when I told her that there's no way that I'm going to quit being an AB just out of the blue, she goes on a rant, a bit something like this:
"You can't change the past, you have to go forward. I want the **** (Name censored) I knew and loved, not a grown man who acts like a child!"
I respond with what I truly believe:
"There will come a day where I'll give this up, but that day is NOT today. As long as arrogant demands from others keep stacking up, there will never be a day where I don't get away from the world by living in my happy place. You'll never understand it, because your judgement is clouded."
She believes that day can be today. I don't believe her at all, is it wrong that I post-pone this? Even though she's stated she won't marry me until I've established myself with a real job and such. I don't think I really want to marry her, she doesn't make me happy.