I don't even know where to start. I'm having a really hard time in life right now. I think I am trans-sexual and AB but no one knows and I'm scared. I think I would be coping fine if it were one or the other. But the tricky thing is I don't feel like coming out as trans will help me at all because I would feel like I would still be holding back. Like it's not the whole story and I would still be faking who I am because I still don't feel comfortable dressing in "male" clothing. I feel like I'm a trans-sexual sissy. That is, born female, but feel I am male and think that the only clothing I feel like myself in in sissy clothing. I'm really struggling. I'm very depressed and isolated and have not been able to work because of depression and anxiety. I want nothing more than to be engaging in life and to be a contributing member of society but feel it's the suppressing of who I am that causes to me to not be able to function.