About 3 months ago I embarked on a simple experiment - Can I have and use diapers regularly with out them being a means of sexual gratification. In other words, I want to have them and simply enjoy them with out the associated masturbation. As much as I love diapers, I'm just not comfortable with the sexual side of it. Yep, I consider it wrong - at least for me.
This is the first time I've have diapers in my possession for an extended period of time. My pattern was to buy from local pharmacies and medical supply houses or improvise with common household items, feel guilty after using, purge and swear them off only to eventually come back to them.
So how am I doing? I just love having my own diapers. I feel like I'm a little boy who finally has gotten his diapers back that I've missed so badly. They feel so comfortable and relaxing to put on. I love wetting them - I feel like such a little boy who's not quite ready for big boy pants.
But, I'm not doing as good as I had hoped with the gratification issue - old habits die hard. If I'm not able to overcome this my diapers will have to go and the little boy inside me will be very, very sad. I want my wife to be my only source of sexual gratification.
Has anyone out there been through this? What advice can you lend? Is this even possible?