This is a problem I've dealt with for years and I was wondering if anyone else felt the same way about family.
First off, don't get me wrong; I love my family but not in large doses. I would rather avoid the large gatherings like the one I have scheduled for tomorrow at my folks house and I am NOT comfortable around my exteneded family AT ALL. It's all of my sisters, aunts, cousins and other family members. UGH. At least one of my sisters has a built-in excuse, she lives in Arizona. I only wish I had that option- That I lived clear across the US of A.
I feel like at times my father thinks more about his feelings rather than anyone else's because of the fact he's rather estranged from his own family due to a religious conflict that's been going on since before I was even born. I feel like he's letting his feelings overtake anyone else's personal feelings. I would much rather just do a small thing with my parents rather than with large, extened family and feeling as ostracized as I do around family. It's also the crowd mentality. I'm not comfortable in family crowds.
I feel different than everyone else in the family and I hate feeling like I'm being judged because I am so different. It's never easy on me. I am really dreading this thing. Last event I had back in December with family was a royal suck-fest and I couldn't wait to get back to my hometown and get hammered drunk.
I have a question for my fellow ADISCers, do you feel the same way around family? Do you feel different from your family and do you dread family events as I do? Do you also feel very pressured around family as well; even though you do love them?
For some reason it's that way with family only, never around friends for some reason. Maybe it's cause I feel like my friends don't judge me like family does.