At this point in my life, I'm looking for something more out of this fetish - I don't want it to be just a fetish anymore, something that I use primarily as my sexual outlet. I want it to eventually become something that I can say "This is what makes me happy" and be confident in that statement, regardless of what others around me may say.
I've always been curious as to how much of a tb/ab I've been - I was never one for actual roleplaying (having almost never partaken in any), so my thoughts were that it wasn't something that wasn't for me. However, after making a new friend (who's getting a late christmas pacifier present~<3), I was able to gain some more introspection on who I am in regards to my attachment to diapers. I learned there's a lot more to how I had been using them before in terms of being satisfied when in them.
Essentially, I've come here as a DL who's looking to make the transition to AB, and thought there'd be no better place than ADISC to ask for help in that matter. I've been trying to get more in touch with my AB side for months now, but I feel like I've not gotten closer by much at all. (One thing I have done is I now have a pacifier on its way in the mail; I'm hoping that will help me become more AB!)