One of the most intriguing things about AB/DLism to me is the whole notion of how embarrassment/humiliation is so appealing. I would rather stick to the idea of "embarrassment" rather than "humiliation" right now, just because I think that humiliation sounds so extreme. Like, when I think of humiliation, I think of being so embarrassed that you start to feel depressed or sick or crazy or whatever. Embarrassment, on the other hand, can sometimes give you a thrill without completely taking you out of your comfort zone.
I mean, I think a lot of people have humiliation fantasies, but I bet most of them wouldn't have the guts to live them out...there are just too many consequences, and it breaks down the wall between "normal" life and AB/DLism.
Embarrassment, on the other hand, is something that I know I at least have felt in the AB/DL sense, even if most of it was beyond my control.
Now, I've read about the reasons why embarrassment is such an appealing factor in AB/DLism....the whole notion of now embarrassment is a state of powerlessness, and lack of power is a natural trait of real babies, and yada yada yada. I'm not so much concerned with that right now.
I guess what I'm curious to hear from people is...when you have AB fantasies, do you like the notion of embarrassment? Also, how does it play into your fantasies?
When I think about it, I think it's more of a question of...when you fantasize, do you picture yourself as an actual baby, or do you picture yourself as yourself in a situation where someone is treating you like a baby?
Here's what I mean: If you like to picture yourself being a baby, then I would imagine embarrassment would not be a factor. Because...babies aren't embarrassed about being babies.
But...if you like being TREATED like a baby...I don't see how you can avoid embarrassment. I mean, even as an AB, I think it's embarrassing to think of myself as a baby...I think it's just a natural human trait. Maybe it's just me, but it seems like everyone would feel at least some kind of embarrassment if someone were to treat them like a baby in any way. Even if it's just simple things like playfully pinching a cheek or using slight baby talk.
I mean, I can think of a lot of little situations where friends (mostly female ) have made little babyish jokes to/about me. One time I was tired and one of my friends said "Do you need to be put in your crib?". Another time, another girl and I walked by some baby clothes and she said "Should we get a onesie for you?" And, of course, I have shown my teddy bear to a few female friends, who thought it was completely adorable that I had one. I even left my teddy out one time so that one of my male friends would see the teddy, and he made a few lighthearted jokes making fun of me about it.
But in those situations...there was always that thrill of embarrassment. Even though the embarrassment was uncomfortable, part of me wanted them to push those statements even further. It wasn't just the desire to be a baby...the embarrassment magnified it.
And I think it's just that those things are the closest I've gotten to someone treating me like a baby. Besides, if someone were to baby me because I asked them to, I would always be thinking they were only doing it because I wanted them to. In the embarrassing situations, what's so appealing about it is that I know that THEY get pleasure out of babying me. So I think it makes sense, because that's the way it is with real babies...tons of people, especially females, enjoy treating babies like babies.
Whew...I always get carried away with posts. Now it's probably too long for most people to take the time to read it. But I always think it's fun to think about these kinds of things.