Well I have continued to ponder why I'm AB/DL as I suppose I will. Some seem to think that the root of the cause is often from abuse, or can be. I know that my parents have never been abusive, however I just came to the recognition that perhaps seeing my friends parents and their effect, might have caused stress on me. I'm not trying to dis' on my friends parents, i have a lot of respect towards them, but i know sometimes they didn't do things quite right. There was a lot of yelling in that home, on account of both parents and children, and i know of one account where it drove my buddies dad mad enough that the Father hit him. The only direct influence I could see it having on me, is that my buddy had a bit of a thing about control, and so some of that anger sometimes came out on me.
I have lived across the street from them from 3rd grade till 10th, and was always friends with them, but there was a lot of drama, and a whole lot more things going on than i can spend time describing.
Do you suppose that Indirect abusive nature could be a reasonable cause for repressiveness? I have noticed that a lot of my behavior developed stronger during my time knowing them, however I do remember it existing beforehand.