I used to on a no loner existing forum a long time ago when going through my exploration phase of figuring out who I was. It was a long a difficult journey. Fortunately, I have a wonderful woman in my life, now my wife, that was able to be there with me the whole way and allow me the freedom to figure out who I was.
Over the past 2 years I have actually been completely diaper free. It was a hard fought battle, and its not that I detest wearing diapers. On the contrary, I enjoy it, but have realized that there is a time and a place for everything. For me the use of a diaper was more comfort after having a bad day. I didn't go big into regression, and no sexual play was involved. For me the wearing and wetting of a diaper was nothing more than stress relief.
After getting through the tough patch in my life, I have come to realize there are many other ways to reduce stress, and as such have stopped using diapers as while my wife is accepting of them, was never fully comfortable around them. Granted, I have always had some diapers in the house just to be safe in case of a bad day.
All was going well until recently when I learned a distant friend was also finding out about his AB/DL side. He confided in me and was seeking advice that was hard for me to give. The reason being was he was only thinking of himself, and what he wanted. I understand we all have to be selfish at times, but as many of us know taking too much will push people away.
After talking with him for a while and realizing that my help was not appreciated, I backed off hoping all will go well for him. This has left me in a dilemma though. Now I find myself stressing over him and worrying about what is to become of him. I don't want to see him make himself an outcast and be shunned by family and friends like happened to me. Because of this, my thoughts keep drifting to him and diapers in general and make me want to revert back.
I know there would be nothing wrong with this, but my wife and I are very happy at the moment. When I was going through my usage phase she was still around but slightly unhappy. I know I even said there is a time to be selfish, but I don't think now is the time. I also fear of going through another phase where I will want to wear more consistently, and this will not work for my professional career and may strain our marriage.
Like I said, there is a time and place for everything, but I don't see now being the time. Does anyone know of a way to defuse this before it gets out of hand. I know from past experience, the longer I hold out, the stronger the desire, and perhaps the length may become.
Any advice is welcomed!