Hey ADISC! I know I haven't been posting a lot lately (which I sorta feel bad about, because this site and the people on it have helped me out immensely over this past year) But it's mostly because I've been busy with the holidays, and, preparing for THIS.....
Sadly for those of you who saw this thread hoping to see something about a wedding, it's not. =P
However, at this point in my lifetime, I'd say it's personally just as important.
Later this evening I will finally, after 10 long years (more than half of my brief existence) be attending my Eagle Court of Honor Ceremony to attain the final and highest rank in Boy Scouting: the exalted Eagle Scout rank!
Any other Boy Scout on this site will know/understand why this is a big deal for me. As for the rest of you, just consider this a sort of graduation ceremony from the organization. After much dedication and hard work, I finally get a chance to have my 15 minutes of fame to speak to everyone in my troop.
The funniest part being, I'm not too anxious to receive the reward. I could honestly care less about the badge and all that, because that'll never eplace the experiences I had with my troop. I'm most anxious/excited to be able to speak to all of the boys who look up to me and all of the adults who respect me and tell them something inspiring, for the sake of having this once in a lifetime opportunity.
Maybe this is just an appeal to my narcissim, but I'd like to think I have a chance to make a difference (or at least a memorable footnote) in these people's lives (if I haven't alreay throughout my scouting career).
To think that I've finally reached the culmination of my hard work is utterly astounding, but a bit depressing as well. With this transition from Boy Scout to Eagle, it seems to have sunk in a lot more that I'm actually becoming an adult now, which is a bit terrifying! I've spent so much of my life enjoying myself and experiencing everything life threw at me that I don't know if I've spent enough time preparing for the real world. Most would argue that I've been given all the tools I need and just need to go for it, but taking that last step to truly become an adult (well symbolically at least, legally I AM an adult) seems like it's the longest stride and the hardest to endure.
I'm not going to get caught up in worrying right now though. I've got a big day ahead of me as well as a big speech, so gotta go grab myself some glory. Wish me luck all!