I've always asserted the idea on here that I am not a sissy. I wear girly clothes and love girly things when regressing, but that was because I felt entirely more infantile.
I guess the reason why I felt more infantile, was because I felt more normal. I felt right. I felt like that's who I was. And the funny thing is, is that it wasn't because I was regressing. It's because I wanted to be a girl.
I'm not sure what the demographics are for transsexual infantalists, but I'm one of them. This wasn't a random decision - I've been battling this for a long, long time. As of a month ago, I accepted that I wasn't happy with being a guy. I understood why I identify with women. I feel happy when I can be a woman. Ironically, it was during Canadian thanksgiving while cooking a turkey dinner for 10 people. I couldn't eat anything. I was having anxiety attacks. I broke down in front of my friends.
I wont get into the details or history; I've now accepted myself as transsexual (male to female) after so long of ignoring it and countering it with trying to be manly. This was similar, actually, to when I figured out I was a TB back in the day.
I've begun my transition to female, and I'm so excited. This is the first time in my life I genuinely felt like I had a future and that I liked myself.
I didn't want to do a blog entry, because a lot of blogs go unnoticed, and I figured that this is a reasonable bit of information that should be used to further educate people in the demographics of AB/TB/DL people. Heaven knows how often us *Bs go unnoticed with zero support, very little information or explanations. We have a quite few *Bs, but yet our group is non-existant. I've accepted myself as an AB for 8 friggin years, and it surprises me that the only thing that people understand about us is from what they saw on CSI.
So, I suppose this calls for an AMA (ask a man anything (or woman) ). Please, fire questions at me. Let's learn a little more about the involvement in the *B/DL world.