My Dad was looking through my closet while I was at work a few days ago, we got in a fight and he thinks I'm using drugs again (I've been clean for a few weeks, but try telling that to family that worries about you). When I got home I realized that alot of stuff in my closet had been moved around, eventually my Dad came in and asked why I had diapers in my closet. I just sortof stood there for a few seconds, probably incredibly red in the face and said it was part of a joke. He must have realized how uncomfortable I was, because he didn't ask anymore questions, or what I meant by a "joke", he just sighed and left without saying anything, and hasn't brought it up since. Oh, and they were teddy Bambinos. It's just really fucking with my head that he saw them, I'm worried what he thinks of me now, or if he thinks I'm some sort of crazy fetish sex-fiend...It doesn't help that I already have so many other "issues" in his mind (being gay, using drugs, alcoholism, criminal charges, dropping out of college), I'm worried that eventually he's gonna think I'm crazy. I've already tried to move in with a friend of mine a few months ago, but my Dad didn't think I was capable of taking care of myself, and said he'd rather have me at home, and even told me he wouldn't make me pay him rent. This diaper situation just probably makes him think even worse about me... If I was a normal person and I heard about someone else having a son like me I would wonder how they could still want to deal with someone like that, but I like to think that my Dad loves me enough he can overlook how much of a fuck-up I am in so many regards. Ugg. I'm really depressed about this, so just any kind words any of you guys can say would be appreciated.