I would imagine this has been done before on here, and if it was sorry, but lets try something. I am just trying figure out more why I have a diaper fetish, and maybe with diaper fetish people giving their input we can try to find some common denominators on what would cause us to be this way and help us better understand. I know whatever we find out will not make this go away, but I think may help some of us be more accepting of ourselves. So lets list somethings from early childhood and on up to factors in our lives that we would think could possibly attribute to having a diaper fetish. Lets even list things about us in general to see if there is a connection there. I will start and I hope with your cooperation maybe we can discover something that therapists dont even know.
1]Ever since I can remember I have had a fear of death for me and my loved ones.
2]Ever since I can remember I liked to wear a diaper.
3]I can remember when I was very young maybe 3-5 yrs of age, I would get in trouble for pooping my pants and my mom would make me sit on the toilet until I had a bowel movement with no privacy and her sometimes standing in the bathroom and then I would get spanked severely and be diapered
4]I had a bedwetting problem, but was never made to wear a diaper for that, but have plastic under the sheets, and would not be allowed to drink anything for an hour or two before bed. [ I remember that was terrible as I would be so thirsty]
5]I can remember my mom publicly humiliating me when I was around 3-5 years of age, one time I was diapered at my grandparents house for pooping my pants and made spectical of, and I can remember on time I pooped my pants at a party and my mom cleaned me up in the bathroom and then took me naked outside in front of everyone and put me in the car and took me home and spanked me
6]My parents would drink and fight a lot when I was at that young age and I seemed to always be nervous about that
7]I believe I was neglected alot
8] I also believe though that I had an ok childhood, I dont believe I was abused
9]As I became older I have always seem to have a lot of stress and anxiety
10] I was picked on some at school
11]Diapers seemed to be a sexual thing for me even before I was old enough for masturbation
12]Once I got to the age of masturbation, diapers are usually always included in my sexual thoughts
13]I usually never actually use the diaper, have peed in them on occasion but not to often
14]Like to fantasize about being humiliated by wearing a diaper
15]After the sexual part is done, dont want to ever be found out that I like this
16]When I am wearing a diaper and thinking sexual thoughts there is not another care or worry in the world
17]Have sexual fantasies about being made to wear diapers by my mom
18]Would like to be humiliated from women about this, but not from any men and would seriously probably kill them if that were ever the case
19]I think the part of it that I enjoy most is the sexual thrill, but also think that it has something to do with making me forget all my worries and go into fantasy land for a while
20]I have anxiety and depression, but also sometimes am full of life, [mood swings]
Please give your input, it doesnt have to be 20 things, but what ever you would like, I will do the homework after we get several responses to study and I will then post my findings of what some of the common denominators are of people like us and maybe the information will help us all better understand ourselves. Thank You