So I have been with my BF for almost two years and I love him very much and I know that he loves me too. He is always saying how he loves me and will never stop loving me. I told him about my DL side a long time ago (around 6 months ago or more I think) and I know that I rushed it too way to fast by wearing around him the day after telling him. He seemed to be ok with it as in he didn't say that he wanted me to stop and never wear again. He just wanted to know why I wanted to wear them. Then I found out that he was asking all of his friends about what he should do about it which really pissed me off and almost caused our relationship to end because I did not want others knowing and he knew that. I forgave him for that though and a few weeks later he was saying that he wanted me to go see a psychologist as there was something wrong with me liking them. This put a strain on our relationship so I stopped wearing completely but that only lasted for a month or two when I started getting strong urges to wear them again. I started wearing again behind his back so he wouldn't know. He still doesn't know that I still wear them. A few months ago he said that he wanted me to throw away all of my diapers if I still had any and that he did not want to see them ever again and that he didn't know if he could handle it and that he would break up with me if he saw them again. I don't know if he would actually break up with me but lately he has been saying how great it would be if we had our own place and i know that is a long ways away as we don't make enough money and are still in college but I don't think that I would want to live with him if he could not accept this part of me. I would like to bring it back up with him so that he knows that it wasn't just some phase and that it is very much real and isn't going away. I'm hoping that if he sees that it isn't going away he might be a little tolerant and maybe eventually accept it or it might just end the relationship which would be awful but if that is to happen it would be better now then later.
I just don't know how to bring it up again and was wondering if you guys could help me figure out a way.