I am a teen diaper lover, they drive me crazy, but i have had very limited exposure to them (only small incontinence pads and the like). I want to wear a diaper and wet myself but what should i get. I am 6'4" and wheigh 90 kgs so i imagine that i would need a good amount of absorbency. I cannot get them online for two years but i can buy depends at a pharmacy. Are they good enough or should i look elsewhere. Thanks for any help you provide.