I was reading through some of the topics that are in this forum, and even did a search on this, but I wanted to ask a serious question about it. I would ask to please keep the jokes and puns to a minimum, because I already feel weird even asking. Growing up, I think I was about 4 or 5 at the time, I discovered the wonders of masturbation. Now, I know you are all probably already in the mindset of "Ew", but it's not like what you think. I have never been a fan of the classic "choking the chicken", or "spanking the monkey" as it were. Most of the time I do it while lying on my stomach, facing the right and grabbing my genital area (around the penis, not yanking on it). I've always felt this was sort of odd, and I've never told anyone about it. Only a handful of times during my childhood was I caught doing this, and was punished accordingly (spankings, etc). That seemed to get me going even more, and eventually this (along with my childhood bed-wetting) culminated in the fantasy of being diapered and spanked in some sort of fashion while masturbating.
I used to masturbate at least twice a day (once before school/work, and once before going to sleep). I always wash my hands afterward, and I always make sure it's at a time when I know I'll have at least 99% complete privacy, in the dark, and preferrably in a cool environment in my room/apartment. Over the past decade, it's slowed down to only once a day, and now it's barely a couple of times a week. I figured this was my way of getting exercise. I know, gross way to exercise, and probably not productive, but it got my heart rate up for sure! LOL
When I started wearing diapers for pleasure reasons, it seemed to be a great alternative to wearing underwear (especially so that the stains didn't end up ON the underwear as evidence of my ...um... discretionary use of free time). It seems like more and more I wait until I am in diapers to masturbate, and so I wait for days at a time when I know I'll have some fair amount of privacy (including diapering time).
My question is this: For those who do masturbate (and there's nothing wrong with that in my book if you do. I figure we all have urges that MUST be met in some form or another), do you often fantasize while doing it or does that come before or after masturbating? And is it normal to not put yourself in said fantasy?
And while we're on that particular subject, anyone ever get spanked while masturbating AND while wearing diapers? For some reason, that idea of being spanked while masturbating and wearing diapers by a woman would be.... OH, let's just say it'd be my ideal fantasy. Not gonna go any further with that. lol
So... [/flame suit on] I'm ready for the feedback. Go easy on me, please.