In the short time that I've been coming here to ADISC and have been active in my AB lifestyle I've noticed some drastic changes in myself. Before ADISC, I mainly just read/wrote age regression/AB stories and had constant thoughts and daydreams but little actions(2 incidents wearing diapers in 12 years).
I have suffered from depression for a long time. I put others before myself but not in the good way that it sounds. While I will gladly clean a family members house or do some other chore for them, when it comes to myself I can find little motivation to do the same thing when it is just for me. I have taken very little interest in my personal appearance and hygiene. To put it bluntly, I have lived like a slob.
As crazy as it sounds, that all changed when I started wearing diapers this time around. I am actually starting to like myself again. I am taking pride in how I look(even during the day when no nappies are involved). My room is the cleanest it has been in years. I have stopped smoking again because it conflicted with my view of myself when little. I find myself smiling for no reason at all.
My first 2 experiences never felt like this(one was with alcohol so I discount that one anyway). For some reason something just clicked this time around. A telling point was last night when thoughts of my past came back to me and I felt myself slipping back into the abyss. At first I didn't want to wear a diaper last night because I didn't want to taint something that has been a positive experience with such negative emotions. But as soon as I put it on those thoughts and memories were washed away.
Has anyone else had an experience like this when they have finally come to accept themselves, AB and all? If so can you share it here to give hope to others.