Finally brought myself to signing up. I am happy that I finally joined yet at the same time feel everything about being a Diaper Lover is wrong. I am just having issues(like I'm sure most of us have had) accepting the fact I like to wear diapers. But joining the forum, is a big step in the right direction. I hope. I have binged and purged diapers several times since I was 15. I am 19 and a guy btw haha. However, I have never actually finished a package of diapers before tossing them all out. I need*** to accept myself but can't :(. I have Abena x-pluses coming in tomorrow, and I really want to finish a whole pack for once.
I want to be able to accept myself for liking to wear and to use diapers, but I feel like this is wrong. I feel guilt and shame for joining the forum, for labeling myself a diaper lover, and simply because I like something that is kinda really disgusting. (however it doesn't feel disgusting when binging)......im so confused and guilty-ridden about being a Diaper Lover.