while away on holiday I had the chance to look at my presence here from some distance also. I'm not entirely sure that I can word it right, but the overall feeling is that I do not belong here.
I know that I thought to have a pretty good reason to try and figure out whether the IC and abdl communities could mean something to one another .. in some persons it seems to even have blended. Another reason was that I have always felt that my mind was somehow "partly child-like" and I hoped to find some people in here that might recognise this.
Looking back, this wasn't the case, despite that I have found this place to be a very positive and tolerant community (on the whole) and I very much appreciated and enjoyed talking to some of you.
But as for the IC vs. ABDL point: I cannot seem to get around the basic truth that I don't have any particular feelings in relation with diapers and such. It makes me feel like being some sort of nun walking around on a house party .. it's a bit tedious for me, as well as I can imagine it to be the exact same from the other side. I definitely don't feel bad about this: I knew this when I came here, and I absolutely respect anyone's feelings in this regard. But as they say, I can't hammer a round peg into a square hole.
re. the "child-like" mind: I've had a really interesting discussion about that. But apart from one or two persons "recognising parts of that", it seems that it's not the same thing as what motivated AB/DL people. That's ok too: I have learned something from that as well.
Therefore, I won't be in here much anymore. Though, unlike a couple of months ago when I was a bit upset, I don't need to run away
I wish you all the very best!
It was good to be here, maybe I'll check in now & then.