In March of 2010 I met a girl 8 years older than me (I was 22 and she was 30). We met because we just happened to be renting rooms from the same guy. She was immediately attracted to me and we eventually hit it off. We were together for almost a year. I told her everything about me. All of my fetishes and she was accepting. We even played out some role-play, but I was always worried about our age difference. I am afraid of being locked down in a relationship for my early 20s. So I broke it off. Her birthday came up this past July and I got her a gift and since then we have been seeing each other late at night. She loves babying me and playing to my deepest desires. I know she does this cause she loves me and wants to be with me, but I'm scared of long term commitment.
Am I taking her for granted? What should I do? It's getting close to the point of no return, but I've been thinking of getting back with her, but I'm torn.