Hey, so I don't know if it's appropriate to post this on ADISC, because it really doesnt directly relate to and *A/DL things, but I have come to appretiate the level headed guidence from many mambers here so here goes.
I grew up in a less than desirable home situation with my sister. My father was abusive, he was an alcaholic, and berated and yelled at us on a near nightly basis, for things that made no sense. I don't really know how to disribe the way he hurt us, not much physically, but mental/emotionally, he devistated us. He said things that were so utterly harmful, I don't want to hash it out.
Long story short, he was never there for me, even when I was getting picked on every single day at school. He lied to me about my own family, and 100 other things. He let my mother work 8 hour shifts cleaning hospital rooms every night so he could sit on his ass and smoke cigs and drink vodka. and through it all not one single family member (my mother included) stood up for me, or my sister.
These 2 paragraphs are no where near enough to explain what he's done to my family, and to me. As it stands, I just moved out a months ago (he bitterly aposed that too) and I know live away from his abuse. I want a new life, I don't want to be depressed anymore... I want a new me, and the biggest obsticle I've got right now is this raging hate in my heart. I can't even discribe it.
So for my official question: how can I get rid of the hate I feel? does anyone know any techniques to help? phycological, theriputic, anything? I need to let this go, it's been proven bad feelings this strong cause serious physical problems, as well as negative phycological routines.
thanks so much guys, like I said, I'm not sure if this is where a question like this belongs, but I know many of us have gone through at least similare experiences, especially regaurding negativity about being TB/DL etc. thank you again