I've been pretty depressed this summer. I feel like my life is just slowing down to a stop. I was expecting to have a part time job doing yard work, but the guy didn't need much done, so I didn't have any summer job. My ideas for a fantasy series that I've started is looking like a dead end right now and I can't get enough kick to start really writing it.
I'm sort of looking forward to school, because I'll at least have more of a sociallife and something to do. I only hung out with one friend this summer, but I wish I had more to talk to. This girl I've been friends with for a year has been dating a guy, and I kind of liked her. I don't think it could work out between us though. I want to find a girlfriend, but I haven't found anyone that likes me. One girl who might have liked me was my ex-girlfriend's best friend so it would have been too awkward. I helped out at a freshman orientation for high school, and had really no one to talk to and I saw my ex. That event made me feel even worse.
I'm taking guitar lessons now, so that has sort of helped. I feel really under accomplished though. Like I should be doing more with my life. You know, doing something cool, that people will admire.
I'm not sure how I feel. I act happy and laugh and stuff, but on the inside I feel miserable.
Blech, I feel awful.