Okay so I wear diapers, we know that. I have had/have problems with my bladder but generally not severe enough to justify full blown diapers. Essentially if I hold it too often for too long, I slowly lose the ability to "feel" when I need to go, and I start dribbling, can't empty fully, and in a few bad instances I lost completely control for a few days, particularly in coordination with certain medications. Generally if I go often when I need to I am fine, but I do still dribble randomly occasionally - never anything severe though. I do find though, that especially when I'm working or in a place where I can't go often enough, my bladder gets worse and I lose more control. I essentially could use pull-on diapers, but I only use them when I'm at home because the toilet is always right there. When I'm out, I wear full-blown diapers for 2 reasons. I) In many cases I really can't always get there, like at work, I can't be leaving every 30 mins II) My infantilist side says if I'm going to wear any kind of diaper, I might as well wear a real one.
Often during the day at least, I would have few if any real accidents on a regular basis, if I had constant access to a washroom...but I'm torn because I feel that because I "up-scale" the diapers to a full-blown brief, that I really don't need (except on a few occasions or night or whatever), that I'm not incontinent enough or whatever to justify it. This one thing has been something that bounces around in my head every so often.
And this brings me to the main reason for this thread. I finally have a nurse practitioner (basically no doctors where I live in Canada, so I was on a 2 year waiting list just to get one of these, and she's between a nurse and a doctor anyway), but now she wants to do a full physical exam of me. I neglected to inform her of my condition when she asked about everything, and I'd feel stupid on both fronts, because it's embarrassing as hell. Like saying "I dribble sometimes, but I wear briefs instead of other products because I like them", kind of sounds dumb, not to mention discounts the fact that there is some problem genuinely there. Also I'm temporarily on welfare (new job next week), and the worker had kind of hinted at the fact that, "if there are any other medical conditions or anything, we can cover it" ... something like that, but again, I feel torn that my condition doesn't really justify full-blown briefs, so I bought them anyway, but I would otherwise be able to have them cover them. Either way, my real dilemma is surrounding the health centre - I'm expected to be ready for a "full exam" of everything, but I don't know what I should do or say.... Any help please? What do you guys think? I never knew what to really say if a hospital ever asked either....
EDIT: Plus there's the fact that I'm kind of a control freak, lol in that I'd rather choose to wet myself than to wet uncontrolably under any circumstances, even if the accident would be just a dribble.
Not even sure if this is the right spot for this, but I'd rather be wrong and it be here than inappropriately in a less Mature forum.