So I have been on family vacation for a week or so now and I realized something tonight.
Well first off I am not sure how most family vacations go but ours usually involves drinking quite heavily. Mostly because it’s always been the “safe environment” and at the younger ages it seems logical to experience how certain things effect you before you can get in any real trouble.
Anyway at the home away from home, university, most of my strongest urges of wanting to pad up are in a drunken state, for wearing though the night. I never put much thought into this because I always assumed it was the drunkenness in me trying to find pleasure, the comfortable kind.
Unfortunately being on vacation means certain things had to be left at home, ha. Although, the urges didn’t get left behind… all week I have been heading to bed and all I can think about is wearing. Pretty much to the point where I am looking up what to get next and planning out how much $ and what day I need to order so I would be able to acquire the package without suspicion back at the university house. Something that is somewhere around two weeks off.
Because of my lack of supplies I have been having trouble sleeping, as in I find it harder to fall asleep even though I am drunk-ish . I have been putting a little thought into why and I have come up with a few ideas.
1. Probably to most logical, I am drunk and who knows what’s going on. Haha
2. I have formed somewhat of a habit of wearing drunk and find comfort in it, and discomfort with out. But this is somewhat of a new thing for me.
3. I somehow feel afraid, subconsciously, of falling asleep drunk because I am fearful of waking up in a wet bed.
Well the first two I can understand but the last on give me slight worry. Wetting the bed has never been an issue, nor do I really find it that troubling. I have never had any worries of wetting the bed before but perhaps after having the mental satisfaction of wearing protection now leaves my mind in an uneasy state without. I know especially around quite drunk college kids it is a normal occurrence... and some even find slight pride, leaving the proof of how intoxicated they had been that night, always makes for a good story... But I guess I would find it very embarrassing having to deal with not only personally but also because the family would definitely hear about it. I am not one to judge, and I know what happens, happens.. just simply stating how I would most likely feel.
So basically do others have stronger urge to wear more while drunk heading to bed? Do you think it’s for any real reason other than the drunkenness finding its way out? Do you have feelings of wanting to wear for more “protection” while drunk sleeping?
As always any input is appreciated.