I just want to tell a little about my process of reparenting the personality fragments that I often refer to as lilbabymikey. I must stress that I am in an adult program and I live in an apartment with a very understanding roomate named Lee. I recieve all the validation I need from many proffesional counselors, whom I've known for years, 22 years in one instance. I say all this because unless you have these resources you will need a very different approach.
My goal is to be the best parent for a little child I can be.
Right now I wear diapers 24/7 and many of my friends in therapy know it. They may not understand the reasons, which include severe emotional challenges, but they are very kind and I don't say much about it to them. There really is nothing to say.
I remind Mikey when to go potty most of the time but I also let him experience the infantile joy of wetting and soiling, usually when I am at home, but I often wet out in the community. I give him a diaper change wherever there is a public restroom if I can or at home. I always carry a backpack which doubles as a diaper bag, but no one who doesn't need to know would be able to figure that out.
One of the staff members is, though our relationship remains a proffesional one, a very nurturing mother figure to me. My case manager is a young counselor who is, to my infant alter, like an elder sister to me. The director who is a very educated man is a good friend and mentor.
My hope is that my incontinence (for lack of a better term) will diminish and there will be considerable resolution of past traumas that are contributing factors in my infantilism and other emotional disturbances.
It is begiining to work, but like any healing it is a process. I am much more open, especially with women, and I've been showing good progress in other areas such as sel-esteem and and interpersonal effectiveness. I don't know how long I will keep Mikey in diapers, but its okay if it is a while, a month or two perhaps. But then I will toilet train him and it will be bye bye diapers...well how about "see ya later diapers!" You all know that a diaper is a wonderful thing sometimes!
Thanks for reading. Later.