I feel that if I label it an illness that it allays my feelings of shame and guilt. And it seems that my infantile feelings if not the behaviors are at least partly out of my control. I feel compelled to mess myself sometimes although I've shown more control lately. Maybe in my case it is a compulsive disorder. Jesus! I don't want to be this way but I am. Yeah it feels good sometimes but I could do without it. But there it is, and it ain't going anywhere. It's not my fault is it? What do you think?
Michael (the grownup)
I don't know if anyone else has asked a similar question and I'm sorry if it sounds redundant. I'm new to this forum and site and I need friends right now. I'm also pritty new to the AB/DL community. Help me break in.