Been thinking...not a lot to do at my job ya know.... anyways been thinking about my life and infantilism. Why is it something that is hard to ignore the urge to be babied or to wear diapers in overwhelming. Not just to me but to all of us. Hence why we risk our parents finding out and what not. I have many fetishes but this is the only one I can't ignore. Why do I or we need this psychologically? I mean I can go months to years without thinking of certain fishes or hell doing a certain habits I like like eating ice cream or drinking or what have you. Yet I cant do the same for diapers without feeling off. Not normal, or normalized. Ya know? So what is it? Why the strong urges? That damn incomplete feeling?