Am new here not sure where I fit though-came across this site by accident. Before I found this I thought I was just some wierdo. Anyway I'm not really sure what am supposed to say here but I guess everyone in same boat to begin with.
I from a very youn age-I can't remember the age by I know I was young was wanting to wear a diaper and that-it seems strange writing it. And I also want a dummy never had one as a child but I did take my cousins. I remember being about 11ish or older and saying to my mam that I wanted one needless to say she was shocked and like why and I was like I don't know why I just do.
I've also had this obsession with people wetting or messing/soiling themselves. I've also been quite aware and terrified that ill wet myself. I go to the toilet a lot I think I have a small bladder. Erm anyway I did when I lived at home use towels as a make shift diaper neve wet them like as it would become obvious but I always wanted to.
Then I started university and one night couldn't sleep at all so thought I'd have ago at wetting myself and I kind of liked it although felt ashamed after I'd done it. Needless to say I did again a few day later. Couldn't do it too often though as I dont do my own washing. I also messed/soiled myself which was kind of fun.
Since finding this site i really want to try nappies because this it what I've been obsessed about since being little-not sure why.
I'm nervous about it though because I don't want to end up wetting or messing myself when am not in one-will this happen? And I want to wear one to bed to see if I would wake up wet or dry the next morning as I used to wet the bed often as a child. I get up about ten times now to go for a wee to make sure that doesn't happen. I am nervous about buying some-will have to wait til September when am back at university go try this though. I'm unsure what to buy I dont want to buy adult ones as I'll get embarrassed would child ones fit an adult?
I'm also going to mention I'm not very grown up infact I dont think iver grown up mentally at all-I still feel like a kid not sure how old but defiantly child like. People think I'm strange that I know as in my friends and am sure my family do too.
Thanks for reading if you did get through it all and hope for some replys. You all seem like a friendly bunch on here.