Need help classifying myself.
On the surface
- Flirt with girls
- Seriously work out
- look serious , never smile or laugh to loud, speak in a serious voice
- play rough sports like basketball and rugby and Mix Martial Arts
- dress casual in black
- read GQ & Men's Health
- Watch reality shows
- Super outgoing and friendly
My True Self
- Scaried of dating girls.. the only time i felt comfortable dating girls was when i lived in Japan. Maybe because they have more of a childish culture there I could be myself.
- Have turned all of my girlfriends into a mother figure
- Hate working out!
- Extremely scared of men. I think all of them want to beat me up and choke me to death. Even though I am 6'4 - 210lb
- Extremely shy, speak in a soft gentle voice
- Always feel like smiling and laughing and being silly and cheeky and sometimes teasing!
- Hate watching and playing agressive sports
- love soft colors
- enjoy lullabies, and ethereal music
- Heavy into Anime, Cartoons and Manga.
- Don't where diapers but once I get home I take all my clothes off and walk around in my glow in the dark disney boxers - aladdin is my favorite
- Religiously use Baby Oil, baby wipes and baby lotion
- Addicted to Pinching and clipping my nails so I won't bite them
I think that gives you an idea.
When i was 3 or 4 something traumatic happened and I think I am still deeply stuck psychological at that age. Also I was secluded from society because I was traveling all the time. Just find that I have to systematically teach myself all the time how to behave like an adult.
Any ideas on where to place me? Sorry for the ramblings english is my second language.