My name is Moli (well, not my real name). It's short for MoliCare - the diaper I used to wear all the time until about 8 years ago. I'm an almost 50 years old computer professional living in Belgium.
I enjoy diving, riding motorcycles and ... diapers! (Yes, I did dive and ride diapered, too! Still working on how to do all three hobbies at the same time :-) )
Approximately 15 years ago, I discovered that I was NOT alone, by typing "adult diaper" into AltaVista (the predominant search engine before Google). Until that day I thought that there was something wrong with me, since I had these strong urges to wear a thick diaper while not incontinent.
Well - not always continent. I have had serious bedwetting issues until my teenage years, with all the problems it can cause. I remember being forced back into diapers on a camping trip - something I resisted loudly enough that other campers came inquiring what was wrong. My parents would answer those questions, adding to my shame.
I've had this diaper preoccupation for as long as I can remember and started acting upon it as puberty hit. First, I would cut leg openings into thick grocery bags and use towels for diapers.
Much later, while living independently, I gathered enough courage to buy adult diapers in a specialty store, telling them I needed the diapers for a visiting grandparent. A likely story? I guess the store owner was just very good about it...
After I found out it was 'normal', or at least harmless enough and that many others did the same thing, I started wearing at least every night and stretches of time 24/7. That caused an enormous waste-output out of my household: I decided to try cloth. Eventually, I started making my own diapers (custom fit, too!) and making them ever thicker. I prefer cloth over disposable: more thickness, less waste, better environmentally.
I had a brief spell of trying out my AB side, which isn't there. For me, it's just about diapers: a classic DL. I do enjoy, however, when my girlfriend locks my pants so I can't take my diaper off by myself.
I found out that most people won't notice thick diapers when worn under jeans and covered by a shirt. Every once in a while, I 'test' my girlfriend - she usually misses them. Another (ex-)girlfriend who is an healthcare professional, does notice. I think the uninitiated won't see it, mostly because they don't expect it. That said, I never wear while working or in the company of family and friends.
Now that I've been wearing thick diapers to bed for years, my body unconsciencely knows it's OK to wet while sleeping. The good thing is: the reverse is true as well. (Naked or just undies: no peeing while sleeping!).
I've come to fully accept my diaper-side and I'm quite happy about that. No more purge-binge cycles, just diapers when I want them (which tends to fluctuate).
The one diaper-friend I have in the real world pointed this site out me, and here I am: ready to make new virtual friends...