Well, I had to explain my life story to you guys, but here goes.
All my life my mom told me my dad was a bad person, from ages 2-14 I had nothing to do with him because of what she said. She would tell me he was cheating on her, and other lies. Since this started at a early age, I learned to hate my dad.
When i was 14 my mom died, of a asthma attack. I found out she had a mental illness, and that most of the things she had told me about my dad were a lie. Though he wasnt a picture perfect husband he had done things wrong before, he was not this mean horrible person I thought he was, Since my mom was gone, I was forced to live with the one man I never had anything to do with my entire life, it was like living we a stranger for a few months.
Well, me and dad are fine now. We have a ok relationship, though my dad is one of those people that is hard to live with and in times of anger can say stuff he don't mean.
Anyways, Ever since back in December, I have been having shortness of breath and heart palpations due to stress. I feel so lonely with just me and my dad, and my dad is really not one of those parents I can talk to or have long conversations with or even relate too, heck we are totally different.
On top of feeling lonely, I just hate the way I worry so much now. I just miss having somewhere there like my mom was. My dad kinda leaves me alone and lets me do what I want.
I'm just not sure what to do this is why I'm posting.