I know it's been eons since I've posted or even been on ADISC but I need some help. This year my wife and I will have been married 5 years and we're no farther along on the diaper issue than when I first told her back when we were engaged. Fast forward, we now have a 3 year old and a 6 month old. My desires to wear diapers have never really went away, though they have come and gone for periods of time in the past 5 years. We are currently potty training our son and this has made me wearing diapers a huge issue. She gets very angry and doesn't speak to me for a day and says things like "how can you discipline your son for not using the potty when you don't practice it yourself." Understandably, I feel conflicted, but I also feel I am an adult and can do what I choose. Deep down though, I think about years down the road and not wanting my kids to find out about my desires, and I feel I truly want to stop. Unfortunately, I also feel like this is a sort of addiction that I can't ever be cured of, only force myself to think about other things. I wish I had some people I could talk to when I feel tempted to indulge to keep me in check and help me through it, but there doesn't seem to be any kind of "AA" for diaper wearers, at least not that I know about. I feel like I can't talk to my wife about it, she's no help and most of time if she even does talk to be after bringing it up it's "I don't know what you want me to say". It's very frustrating and I feel like I'm trapped and I have no outlet for this.