Just something on my mind and I needed to kinda have an outlet. Recently in the past few years, I've felt a little out of place with the AB world as a whole. I've become a bit cynical and and not sure why. Maybe it's cause my baby side has been hurt a lot over the years, and it's hard for me to relate to other ABs because I don't go for the cutesy stuff and my experiences have thus far been in the negative category.
I can't lose myself into the drivel that passes for kids shows today or kid movies. However, there are some exceptions to the case if I find something that looks good to me; and that's rare of me to find something I like in this day and age that's not too cute or full of juvenile potty jokes whereas I prefer more grownup jokes.
I feel as I get older, dealing with the diapers, and other issues AB is not as important because of the drama I have faced with the AB side over the years. I feel a bit down sometimes when I read about people getting to be babied, when I've never had that option since I can't afford to use any services that are out there for that. I have other things I'd rather spend my money on anyway if I can.
Plus, I'm not desperate to go out and do something stupid just for a thrill or to satisfy a fetish. That's dumb.
Due to Asperger's; I never really grew up in a lot of ways so I feel out of place a lot of times in the grown-up world as well. I don't get into talking about politics, religion or the like as I detest both politics and religion with a passion and find both boring. I am a sports fan yeah, but that's an obsession of mine. I deal with things as best as I can and yet, I would love just once to be babied and see how it feels. I feel like an overgrown 8-year-old with a licence to drink alcoholic drinks to be honest more than anything else.
I've done the daddy thing before, but that didn't work out as there was outside interference that got in the way of my relationship wth the AB girl. I've found AB girls to be fickle with daddies and who they pick to be their daddy. So, I've kinda given up on it. I guess lately, everything has made me a big, giant cynical person who can't decide what he wants in life.
I was wondering if anyone else felt the way I do at times. Just kinda curious.