well like the title sez,a buddy of mine works for a florest and was putting togather some flowers,they where for a drag show later that day.
the guy that picked them up was volenteering with whoever sponcers the event.
i ended up going to the show(first time)and dident realize u had to buy a ticket so i snuck in the back door.as i was leveing to meet up with friends he was standing at the front desk area so i grabbed a napkin and wrote my number on it and handed it to him..
long story short i suck at relationships.closest thing i have ever had to a real relatoinship was a guy i used to go to the park with,drink get stoned and screw him on a picknic table.
im afaraid of rejection
the self esteem thing is kicking my ass rite now,going out for coffee monday when he gets off work and im kinda freakin out.
im tryin to not get all in my head over what to wear,what to say,how to say it... we are realy nothing alike,he is older(32) im young(19) he is well dressed professional and polite and i am not,he has a mostly normal life and i lived in a dopehouse for over a year before i cud buy cigerettes.
i wont bullshit i can be a real asshole for less than good reason but i have good qualitys too,honest careing protective afew to start with. just hope it goes ok.